The journey of an aspiring fighter #58
With only one week to go until I board the plane to Las Vegas for The Ultimate Fighter trials, my brain has been doing some serious over thinking.
As you will all know by now, my entire trip has been funded by the most amazing people I have ever met. People that actually have faith in me – more so than I do myself – that I can make it.
Despite this being the most incredible feeling to have all these people believe in me it also puts the pressure on me because I can think of nothing worse than letting people down.
I am fully aware that the trials will have the best of the best. The best girls at my weight in the whole world. These are the people I have been idolizing since I started MMA only 3 years ago. Most of these girls were already established when I had only put a pair of gloves on a handful of times. Now I am going to be there, with them!!
It’s a wonderful feeling but also extremely daunting. The spotlight doesn’t faze me so much as the persistent feeling of failure that bugs me 24/7. We all get the feeling that we are inadequate at times, however I don’t believe there is anything wrong with this as long as we don’t let it ruin our chances at greatness.
It goes without saying that I will leave everything on the mats, and certainly give it 110% but this is more than just a competition to me. This is a test of everything I have learnt so far. Every time I felt like I was going to die on the mats during training – it will all be worth it!
So here’s to living without regret, making dreams come true and enjoying every second of the journey!